i'm sure i am not alone when i say, most days start one way and continue on, another; for example, i often find myself internally (and sometimes outloud) wishing that our daughter, Merici, could get "morning mommy" all day long. unfortunately the agenda of the day, mixed with mini me fun, letting others live rent free up-top (smh) and a semi-social-media addiction (you know you have one too - don't go mom shaming me now) have been literally draining what wonder I have within, to shine the way that makes me just as happy as Merici is, from being around me. days that i can find the ump, i've found myself a second wind when i decide to do something active in the afternoon.
ABOUT ME - i prefer to exercise/do anything active in the morning before 10am, at the latest, but as early as 7am (on a good day); from 2016-2018, i taught indoor cycling in downtown indianapolis at watts indoor cycling studio (RIP). my classes were usually at 6:15am, 7am, and 6pm; 4-7 days a wk.
i've always had a love for Zumba on the Nintendo Wii and have been streaming an afternoon sweat session on my twitch channel between 1pm-3pm. at the start of stream, i'm very open about the "level" i am at, as far as my energy/mood go and continue to communicate how much it shifts as we get our sweat on together.
ABOUT ME - bipolar disorder (18), anxiety (30) and ADD (23) - my super powers; i was diagnosed with each at the age you see listed next to the power and postpartum depression is something i've struggled with on/off since the birth of our daughter in 2018
each of us, if we take the time to care for ourselves properly, find our special shortcuts that bring back the light in our eyes and the joy to our souls. the amount of light that begins to fill us varies and can't ever be replicated exactly BUT it can continue to be used for fulfilment, as long as "the love" lives. "the love" can be lost, simply by overkill; it can be lost by one threatening it or using it against us therefore hindering its personal worth.
somedays start one way and continue another - can we hold onto the positives of the day, the ups that come to rescue us from the downs - even if they seem far and few most days; can we celebrate the small wins that made it possible for the day to even begin.
i don't know about you but out of the 13 days of April thus far in 2021, 50% of them have been a little darker than i want to deal with - so dark that i don't know how to deal with them.
i don't know about you but when i remember what put me in those dark places, i'm quickly reminded of what brought me back out of them and towards a brighter day.
it may not have been within the same 24hr period, but know that a brighter day will make everything feel a-okay - hold onto your joy.